Celebrities, athletes, religious leaders and politicians are particularly in the “light” and whether they want to be or not, they are unfortunately idolized and looked to as a moral source.

I’m hestitant of those who encourage others to follow their lead, take actions and press agendas that do not take into consideration basic humanity. 

We live in times where more than ever our communities are seeking answers and a sense of belonging. 

As adults we all have the opportunity to lead our lives in anyway we want.  Our day to day lives are what we are driving for other to see and whether it is our intention or not, others do “see” and  follow regardless of whether you are a parent or not. 

My hope is that I lead a life, that if followed, will result in greater compassion and inclusively for all of  human kind.

The hiccup in the system is that  its been well over ten years since I’ve experience all of the things that take place when working in an office.  I’m just not sure if I’ll ever not be tired again.  My hope is for a pattern to fall into place and eventually not  feel like dying at the end of the day.

I’m thankful for this opportunity as it is sending me in my ultimate direction, adjustment period and all.

I just finished reading Wayne Dyers book  “10 Secrets for Success and Inner Peace”.  The “Fifth Secret; Give Up Your Personal History” really stuck with me because it has taken me a long time to let go of my own personal history.

“When a speedboat zooms across the surface of the water, there’s a foamy froth behind it that’s called the wake of the boat.  The wake is nothing more than the trail that’s left behind…It does not drive the boat”

True enough the experience of our history makes us who we are today.  The difference for me was separating  what is over and done with, because no amount of toiling would change it anyways, from what is now, today.

What is driving your boat?  Do you know or are you too busy looking back at the wake?

1. I think part of a best friend’s job should be to immediately clear your computer’s history if you die.

2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you’re wrong.

3. I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap when I was younger.

4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.

5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

6. Was learning cursive really necessary?

7. Map Quest needs to start their directions on #5. I’m pretty sure I know how to get out of my damn neighborhood.

8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

9. I can’t remember the last time I wasn’t at least kind of tired.

10. Bad decisions make good stories.

11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren’t going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.

12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don’t want to have to restart my collection…again.

13. I’m always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to the ten-page paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

14. “Do not machine wash or tumble dry” means I will never wash this — ever.

15. I hate it when I miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Damn it!)but when I immediately call back it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What’d you do after I didn’t answer? Drop the phone and run away?

16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

17. I keep some people’s phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

18. My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day “What would happen if you ran over a ninja?” How the hell do I respond to that?

19. I think the freezer deserves a light as well..

20. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay

You see, my niece Elizabeth, is 23 and has downs syndrome.  She was not particularly interested in my mission and took her time browsing, walking and chewing her food.

Liz saw a friend while we were shopping and their joy in seeing one another was so sweet.

She is a natural force and a healthy reminder about the wonder of  life and letting go of control.

Carol also told me that she “did not enjoy” the Wild Women III; Free to be party “It was giddy.”  She went on to say that I speak with “charisma” and have a way of “bringing people together and energizing them” and that I should “find something to do with my skill…otherwise you are wasting.”  She suggested politics.

You know what? I think Carol is cooler than hell and respect her straightforward style of communication and told her so.  Imagine that.

Imagine being in a space in life where we choose to hear people, especially when their thoughts do not align with ours and it isn’t the least bit upsetting because we know who we are.

Imagine living life knowing that the only person that has the power to make or break us, is us.

I left this conversation full, confident as hell because I not only imagine this place of being in life, I live it.

that we

and we alone

have the power to change our reality;

the power to live our dreams.

Our dreams can become our reality

at the moment we refuse fear,

eliminate distrust and orphan assumption.

It is at this moment, when we open

ourselves to the possibilities of greatness

and warmly embrace love,

that we find all things we feared were illusions,

and all our dreams have been there

before us,

waiting all this time for us,

to love ourselves enough to be them.

Mardica Hicks ~ August 29, 2007 ~ All Rights Reserved

Over the past several weeks I’ve been given opportunities left and right to see things from another point of view, therefore asking for forgiveness for mistakes and hurt feelings.

The bitter~sweet lesson is wanting to be forgiven, while sharply being reminded of  how I have not been so  generous with forgiving others. Nice wake up call, huh?

Its true that we can not give that which do not have or are not willing to see.

My life is a work in progress and I’m in it to achieve my highest good…wish me luck…its obviously needed.

Can’t help but wonder how this dinged the ”brand” of the Wild Women Society and how many shovel loads it will take to dig out of this?

There is magic in being open to feedback, admitting my mistakes and changing course on any given path.

In talking with my friend, Linda Cohen she said something along the lines of “once we stop experiencing, growing and learning we die.”  Well, I’m alive and kicking because a lesson has been learned and I’m grateful for it and many more to come.

I’ve also known for years past that God and the universe have been orchestrating lessons and preparing me to stand in all that I am with compassion and forgiveness while practicing exquisite, non-negotiable, self-care.

Its very powerful, yet contains what I value most, simplicity.   

Thank you,  Ellie G.  for encouraging me to keep bloggin’.